It is 8:15 a.m. and I have a baby on my hip, yogurt on my yoga pants, and I am waving goodbye to my husband as he drives off to work. I have already been “at work” for two hours and have at least 5 more to go. During that time, I will change 4 diapers, rock 1 baby to sleep, make 8 phone calls, and teach 30+ students in an online classroom. I will spend the entirety of my little one’s two hour nap doing paperwork on my computer and waiting for the dryer to buzz so that I can make sure we all have clean clothes to wear for the week.
I am both co-breadwinner and homemaker. I am a work from home mom.
The decision to work from home was one that came easily. Shortly after my daughter was born, I knew that I would do whatever it took to be home with her. We are a two income family, so not working at all was not an option. With my teaching degree and a passion for education, I was so grateful when I was offered a job to teach online from home. I didn’t have to give up my career or time with my baby; it was the best of both worlds.
Working from home, in reality though, is one of the hardest things that I have ever done. It turned out that all of the things that I loved about working from home were also the things that made working from home a challenge. There are three huge factors that make this job the best, but also the hardest job!
I get to be my daughter’s primary caregiver.
This means that I am the person to watch her take her first steps, cut up her grapes, hear her first words, and teach her about colors and shapes. I am also the person to change her poopy diaper (one-handed, while on an important phone call) and clean up the Cheerios she threw all over the floor. I get to be the one to try to silence the dog, while turning on another episode of Daniel Tiger to keep her at bay for another ten minutes while I finish teaching, and I am her primary source of entertainment.
I am her very distracted companion, filling her day with fun-filled Pinterest activities if and when I get one spare second, ensuring that she has meaningful and educational things to do while I’m busy working. Although, I am almost always exhausted, I know the exact quality of care she is getting, and I don’t have to spend half of my paycheck on daycare.
My schedule is flexible.
In my previous 8am-3pm job, my work hours were set in stone. Working from home gives me the benefit of working some set hours and having freedom with the others. I am able to wake up early, while my family is still sleeping, and do a couple of hours of work. In the evening, my husband and I get to cuddle on the couch while I create lessons for my online classroom.
I can often manipulate my schedule so that I can fit in midday doctor’s appointments or lunchtime mini-playdates. It also means that no hour of the day is off limits for work, and I often find myself working late into the night and into the wee hours of the morning.
I get to work from the comfort of my home.
It truly is amazing how much I get done in my house some days! I get to enjoy my husband’s delicious cooking for breakfast every day, I don’t have to plan ahead for lunches, and I am able to throw dinner in the crockpot. Granted, there are days that I realize that its already 2pm and I haven’t brushed my teeth, but I usually work with a fresh cup of coffee by my side and my sweatpants on, so I consider it a win.
But, working in my house has the heavy burden of constantly feeling like I need to unload the dishwasher, organize the playroom, or any of the other myriad of things that a person is responsible for in their own home.
I am both co-breadwinner and homemaker. I make a paycheck, kiss boo-boos, refill sippy-cups, and type away at my laptop day and night. On easier days (of which there are many), I am grateful for this amazing opportunity to raise my child. On difficult days (of which there are many), I am reminded that this is such a short season of my life. A season that I will look back on and be strengthened by my perseverance, proud of myself for being both a full-time employee and full-time mama.